I dindīt saw the picture, hmm... i say, donīt draw something that makes you feel bad, or that goes against your heart, i know how difficult would be to try something that goes against you, as artist always reflects its soul on their works, in can be horrible to draw something that goes against you. friends requesting things that would make you feel bad? they should respect you, they donīt have any right to treat you like their personal "art dispenser" and make you do whatever they want. and lets not talk about " torture you to death" to make you work for them. so wrong! im sorry to hear you have been through this, but keep it up! and stay strong! your art is amazing! i canīt stop faving!
You're a great artist with a wonderfully whimsical style and you shouldn't let people talk you into degrading yourself for their interests. Just keep doing what you're doing! It seems to make you happy and I know it makes others happy as well.
The last thing you have to do is take a decision by the shame you feel . Others can make you feel bad because those things are aginst what they think is good and bad, but you have to remember that you have your owns as well and those are the ones you should follow to take your decision. I take an oath to myself to never watch or search those type of things again just because I don't want to, but that doesn't means I (or anybody) have the rights to tell you what to do or stop doing just because don't like it.
Forget about other people thoughts for a moment and ask this to yourself: do you think it is ok (your own ethics not religion or social ones)? are you happy doing that? do you feel good to yourself for what you are doing? is this against your values or who you are? and most important of all, are you proud of yourself by doing that?
Answer those and I am sure you will be able to take a decision that will makes you happy no matter what.
PS: I will not stop following you whatever your decision and no one should, you are a great artist and seems to be a great person too!
so sorry that you had to deal with that drama over one pic. I didn't really find it offensive I was worried about the fluids since thats against DA policies. I agree with the others don't worry about losing some one over something as trivial as a pony playing with herself. if they can't be mature enough to just remove it from there inbox you don't need them.
(I love the way you type and write in broken English, it's so adorable... I really mean that too, I'm not making fun of you! I understand it's not your native language but HNNNGGG, sometimes I simply go over your art just to read what you've said. Oh, and it's cool, some people really just need to chill out, you can't please everypony Holivi, it's impossible.)
One of my friends got many negative comments just because she drew the Mane Six with wet hair and bedroom eyes. Sure, you could get some ideas but it was as far away from porn as any other normal fanart. Yes, your pic was just that little bit more forward just because of one detail but there are people out there that bitch about even the smallest things. And btw, ONE watcher shouldn't concern you. You have and will get many more.
You shouldn't let people's opinions get to you. There will always be people that don't like what you do. You can't make everybody happy and you shouldn't have to. If you liked it, that is what is important. If you liked it, you should stand proudly behind your work. Even if it was for a friend, you should be proud that you did something for a friend.
I'm actually a little sad now that I didn't get to see it. I'm sure it was just as amazing as your other art. And I'm sure you have plenty of fans who still like your art.
So, please cheer up, and don't be afraid to do similar art just because a few people didn't like it. (Although, if it violates the DA rules, you might not want to upload it to DA. Maybe you can upload them to your own tumblr?)
He dropped you just because of one picture? I do have to beg a question, Was he *really* a fan of your work? If so why would he decide to stop following you over one simple image?, explicit or not it shouldn't matter, your're free to do whatever you like.
My stance on matters like this usually go like "What is art without a little controversy now and then?".
Theres no reason to feel ashamed. Trust me, people always have different opinions on art. So if you're drawing somehting you want to draw who cares what anyone else thinks. And if there's something you dont want to draw, then don't draw it (: